Post by Rowyn Starr on Jul 29, 2017 9:15:52 GMT
Hello there!
As UTCL approaches, I wanted to drop by, say hello, and give you an update on how things have been going since I stepped away from PW & e-fedding. The staff & a few of the vets here know me, but some of you who are new may not so I'll refresh.
Back in March, I had a serious health scare. I was diagnosed with high blood pressure (at the time, I was in serious danger of having a stroke) and in the day that followed, I was diagnosed with Type II diabetes. A lot of RL stuff piled up on me the previous year that included the loss of my best friend as well as my grandmother, major work stress the first four months of this year, and a severe case of depression that bordered on suicide and worthlessness of self. My eating and exercise habits have been bad and nil since my teens and that didn't help, either.
My health issues were caught in time, but it was a huge wake-up call. I could make some serious lifestyle changes and work on getting healthy physically and mentally or I could continue doing what I was doing, stay miserable, and more than likely wind up dying and dying soon. I found out there were more things I wanted to live for other than gluttonous indulgence of unhealthy comfort foods. I also began looking at things to eliminate in my life that were causing stress. Sadly, e-fedding was doing just that. I think Nick and Mason were the only people who really knew how miserable I was with the pressure of trying to write competitively in shoots as well as write a believable story. I stepped away. In spite of that, I didn't hate e-fedding. I love it. Still do.
Fast forward to now: my weight as of last month is down to 215. Two months before that, it was 230. I've cut down a lot on eating in general, I've rarely eat fast food anymore and I've quit drinking soda cold turkey. I've done well with controlling my blood sugar to the point that my diabetic medicine was reduced after my last doctor's visit. I'm still on four different blood pressure medicines, but my blood pressure's been running at pretty decent levels, although the low number is still above average. I walk a half an hour six days a week for exercise. Overall, I've not noticed a whole lot physically aside from no headaches since my scare, but I'm feeling better about myself mentally and it's starting to carry over socially. I found a church I like and I've started getting back into the habit of attending worship services on Sunday mornings, I've made some new friends as well as established a good reputation with my monthly Pathfinder Society events in Knoxville and I've reconnected with a girl I've known since childhood and working on building a solid friendship with her and her two young daughters and hoping that said friendship might lead to something even more special.
I haven't forgotten PW and those I know who are in it and as UTCL comes up (a special PW event for me), I wanted to let you know that I still look in from time to time. I'm rarely on Twitter and while I'm slacking on reading promos, I do read all the show results. I'll be sure for UTCL to read all the RP's and I hope that everyone puts forth great prose as a tribute to the show, your opponents, and your peers.
I love it, but currently I have no desire to come back to e-fedding, despite the breaks between the PW shows. I don't miss that stress of deadline and trying to figure out a way to advance the story that doesn't feel unreal to or forced onto readers. I also would have to figure out a way to write out of a corner I pigeonholed myself into. Most of all, I really miss having someone in the hobby that I can connect to that really inspires me to explore the depths of my character, like the handler of Dierdra Petrova. Never say never, though. I might get the itch to make a one-off appearance somewhere down the road or if I feel like I've got a story continuation worth telling, I'll come back to tell it.
To everyone on the UTCL card, make this show the best kick-ass PPV that PW's seen since it's return. Carry the PW flag proudly and I love you all. God Bless!
As UTCL approaches, I wanted to drop by, say hello, and give you an update on how things have been going since I stepped away from PW & e-fedding. The staff & a few of the vets here know me, but some of you who are new may not so I'll refresh.
Back in March, I had a serious health scare. I was diagnosed with high blood pressure (at the time, I was in serious danger of having a stroke) and in the day that followed, I was diagnosed with Type II diabetes. A lot of RL stuff piled up on me the previous year that included the loss of my best friend as well as my grandmother, major work stress the first four months of this year, and a severe case of depression that bordered on suicide and worthlessness of self. My eating and exercise habits have been bad and nil since my teens and that didn't help, either.
My health issues were caught in time, but it was a huge wake-up call. I could make some serious lifestyle changes and work on getting healthy physically and mentally or I could continue doing what I was doing, stay miserable, and more than likely wind up dying and dying soon. I found out there were more things I wanted to live for other than gluttonous indulgence of unhealthy comfort foods. I also began looking at things to eliminate in my life that were causing stress. Sadly, e-fedding was doing just that. I think Nick and Mason were the only people who really knew how miserable I was with the pressure of trying to write competitively in shoots as well as write a believable story. I stepped away. In spite of that, I didn't hate e-fedding. I love it. Still do.
Fast forward to now: my weight as of last month is down to 215. Two months before that, it was 230. I've cut down a lot on eating in general, I've rarely eat fast food anymore and I've quit drinking soda cold turkey. I've done well with controlling my blood sugar to the point that my diabetic medicine was reduced after my last doctor's visit. I'm still on four different blood pressure medicines, but my blood pressure's been running at pretty decent levels, although the low number is still above average. I walk a half an hour six days a week for exercise. Overall, I've not noticed a whole lot physically aside from no headaches since my scare, but I'm feeling better about myself mentally and it's starting to carry over socially. I found a church I like and I've started getting back into the habit of attending worship services on Sunday mornings, I've made some new friends as well as established a good reputation with my monthly Pathfinder Society events in Knoxville and I've reconnected with a girl I've known since childhood and working on building a solid friendship with her and her two young daughters and hoping that said friendship might lead to something even more special.
I haven't forgotten PW and those I know who are in it and as UTCL comes up (a special PW event for me), I wanted to let you know that I still look in from time to time. I'm rarely on Twitter and while I'm slacking on reading promos, I do read all the show results. I'll be sure for UTCL to read all the RP's and I hope that everyone puts forth great prose as a tribute to the show, your opponents, and your peers.
I love it, but currently I have no desire to come back to e-fedding, despite the breaks between the PW shows. I don't miss that stress of deadline and trying to figure out a way to advance the story that doesn't feel unreal to or forced onto readers. I also would have to figure out a way to write out of a corner I pigeonholed myself into. Most of all, I really miss having someone in the hobby that I can connect to that really inspires me to explore the depths of my character, like the handler of Dierdra Petrova. Never say never, though. I might get the itch to make a one-off appearance somewhere down the road or if I feel like I've got a story continuation worth telling, I'll come back to tell it.
To everyone on the UTCL card, make this show the best kick-ass PPV that PW's seen since it's return. Carry the PW flag proudly and I love you all. God Bless!
