Post by Valiant_ESQ on May 26, 2017 21:43:43 GMT
'Cuz sometimes that seems to be all this part of the board is for.
So yes, I completely failed to show for Redemption 108. I would offer some excuse but there isn't one. I could have and should have at least started my roleplay earlier but I waffled and wasted time and blithely assumed the DL was further away than it was.
To respective handlers of Faith, Cassius, Masaru, Aurora, Chris: I am so, so sorry for not pulling my weight and letting you all down.
To Seth and other fedhead types whom I don't know because apparently I pay no attention to important detail: I am so, so sorry for taking so much of your time and respect only to give nothing back.
This is just...shameful, really. I'm not prone to dropping the ball like this - the last time I no-showed is far enough in the past I don't remember it - and unfortunately that just makes it sting all the harder. Especially since, as stated, Phoenix has been very good to me. Better than I realistically deserve: you guys shunted me up from curtain-jerking (if efeds even have curtains...text curtains?) to twin consecutive main event slots in the space of 3 shows despite my pretty miserable W/L record. Speaking as someone who's had good reason to think their glory days are behind them, and is used to only receiving kind treatment in groups run by friends, this has wound up a very uplifting run, no matter what the scoresheet shows.
...I feel like this is the part where I say I'm leaving. I'm not. Not yet, anyways.
I am asking for an LOA for whatever the next show is (Redemption 109, presumably). Whatever mind-fog made me screw up so hard this week doesn't feel like it's lifted yet, and if I'm going to continue being here, I need to take a good, long look in the mirror and rediscover whatever it is that makes me feel I belong here. Might need to pull a 'soft reboot' on what I've been writing - hell, might need to outright change characters again and do something less demanding. Pretty sure 'comedy midcard act' is more my speed than 'please take me seriously upper card heel'. But we'll see how that goes.
Once again, sorry to you all. You don't ask much of me and it hurts like salt in an open wound when I can't even give you that.
To better days ahead,
So yes, I completely failed to show for Redemption 108. I would offer some excuse but there isn't one. I could have and should have at least started my roleplay earlier but I waffled and wasted time and blithely assumed the DL was further away than it was.
To respective handlers of Faith, Cassius, Masaru, Aurora, Chris: I am so, so sorry for not pulling my weight and letting you all down.
To Seth and other fedhead types whom I don't know because apparently I pay no attention to important detail: I am so, so sorry for taking so much of your time and respect only to give nothing back.
This is just...shameful, really. I'm not prone to dropping the ball like this - the last time I no-showed is far enough in the past I don't remember it - and unfortunately that just makes it sting all the harder. Especially since, as stated, Phoenix has been very good to me. Better than I realistically deserve: you guys shunted me up from curtain-jerking (if efeds even have curtains...text curtains?) to twin consecutive main event slots in the space of 3 shows despite my pretty miserable W/L record. Speaking as someone who's had good reason to think their glory days are behind them, and is used to only receiving kind treatment in groups run by friends, this has wound up a very uplifting run, no matter what the scoresheet shows.
...I feel like this is the part where I say I'm leaving. I'm not. Not yet, anyways.
I am asking for an LOA for whatever the next show is (Redemption 109, presumably). Whatever mind-fog made me screw up so hard this week doesn't feel like it's lifted yet, and if I'm going to continue being here, I need to take a good, long look in the mirror and rediscover whatever it is that makes me feel I belong here. Might need to pull a 'soft reboot' on what I've been writing - hell, might need to outright change characters again and do something less demanding. Pretty sure 'comedy midcard act' is more my speed than 'please take me seriously upper card heel'. But we'll see how that goes.
Once again, sorry to you all. You don't ask much of me and it hurts like salt in an open wound when I can't even give you that.
To better days ahead,
Craig
yeah that's right i used fancy alignment like on a proper letter
i'm such a smug prick even when i'm apologetic
yeah that's right i used fancy alignment like on a proper letter
i'm such a smug prick even when i'm apologetic
